Wow. That is a hard one.
I have a hard enough time of doing that with my mental illness that doing that to get closer to a minimalistic lifestyle makes it ten times worse.
I’m not saying it isn’t impossible, but lately, I’ve been struggling, and trying to better myself at the same time is even more straining on the mind than I anticipated.
The above is a quote from Bjork’s song “It’s All So Quiet.” It’s like a big Broadway number, which is one of the few times that she does a song like that. I think the other time she did anything like that was for the album “Gling Glo”.
I apologize to Bjork if I screwed up the name of the album. Not that she reads my blog, but if she did, I sincerely apologize.
I refer back to Fumio Sasaki’s book and his “55 tips to help you say goodbye to your things.” Yesterday, I looked at my phone and asked the question “Why can’t you part with your things?” and “If you lose it, will you buy it again?”, or in this case, “download it again.”
I went through my phone and started to delete applications that I downloaded and touched once. Then, I went back through and decided that there were a few more that could be removed from the system.
In looking at writing today, I went through the “55 tips to help you say goodbye to your things” from Fumio Sasaki’s book “Goodbye, Things” that I continually discuss and use as my personal workbook for minimizing the clutter in my life.
Two of the things that he mentions were sticking out to me today. The first is, “Ask yourself why you can’t part with your things.” and the second is, “If you lost it, would you buy it again?”
I had a heated conversation with someone over what it is to be a “minimalist”. I realized that there are probably a few readers of my site that don’t fully understand what I am trying to do in my life, and what I am striving for.
“This one goes out to the one[s] I love.”– R.E.M.
I bought some items yesterday for the first time in a long time. Granted, I had to trade in things to Vintage Stock to get to money to spend, but I was able to purchase things nonetheless.
For someone who used to spending money occasionally, this was a thrill. I finally got to impulse buy since losing my job, and I didn’t have to worry about the consequences, as long as I stayed within my means.
I have reflected on my past year online, only to realize that I am still searching for the cure to my mental illness.
BTW, there is no cure.
A lot has changed since I last logged onto I Fart Online, and I needed some time to get my shit together.
Consider my shit “somewhat” together.
During one of my shifts at my job as an ophthalmic tech, I was preparing a patient to see the doctor. He was in his sixties and in excellent spirits and health. No actual problems on the surface — mind you, this was before the doctor had seen him. I don’t know how we got onto the subject, but he started to talk about his childhood. It seems that when you are in a field where you are in a “one on one” situation with another person, they sometimes feel like they can open up to you, or tell you things about themselves that weren’t relevant to the case.
Bartenders can sympathize.
This is a story all ’bout how my life got twisted upside down… Will Smith, from ”The Fresh Prince of Bel Air”
Now that I got that stuck in your head, I’ll continue.
But, before I start, did you know Steve Winwood wrote the song ”Blind Faith” that appeared in 1989’s ”Masters of the Universe” movie? Man, that movie sucked.
(Note to self: ”Watch ’Masters of the Universe’ this weekend.”)
Anyway, this is how I came from having a psychotic break, to have the best time of my life, at least for the moment.
Always the pessimist.